You are the worst fucking idiotic newfag to infest our forum lately. This guy opens his soul to us, tells us about his suicidal side, which I know he's not lying of, and you must act a prick here. Good job.
OT: I wouldn't call that attention whoring, people have the need to talk about their problems with someone. Most don't do it on forum though, well, atleast not this openly, but I realize it's probably the only option since you have socialization issues, we as well could be the closest people to you. I'm not really sure what to say, but I know suicide isn't an option, really. Is there a way out? Are you leaving your parents' home soon? If I were you, I'd just wait untill I finish school and move out, living on your own is probably the best thing that will ever happen to you. Also, courage to socialize comes with age, it's perfectly natural that some may be too shy in teen years.
When I finished 8 year elementary, I started high school. When I came there I didn't know anyone, so I was scared and it took me quite a while to socialize. Still, meeting new people was a nightmare for me, but eventually, over 4 years, I became much more social IRL, and I had no problems aproaching new people. It comes with maturity I guess...
gotta agree, and I see a lot of people relieve stress or depression by letting out. A fine example NTA he felt really out of the mood and stressed, he made a topic about his life and some of his problems...(from what I think he did take a 2-3 month non-developement break) and now he's back feeling as his good old self This forum seems to be an anti-depressant of some sort