Fine, is there at least possibility of exporting our IW4 stats?

 

 

Dude just GTFO :evil:

I've read it and that's one big past that has been screwed. I wish you much luck in your future life.

wow the system really fucked you over.

That's sad. Seems like your whole life is screwed up...

I feel for you, but I don't think you should have let this effect your later life what-so-ever.

 

A lot of people had childhood issues, I for one lost 4 years of my life due to a clinically-diagnosed psychopath which lived with us for 4 years and tried to kill me, and my mom, many times. But the good thing to do is learn from it and you're always a stronger person for pulling through things, I mean, no one would be able to tell that I'd been through that shit, because I dealt with it and became a stronger person because of it. Put all that behind you and show everyone that you're a better person because of it, don't get it eat you up inside till you can't handle it.

 

Just something to think about.

I too have a friend who's just treated as NTA and he is just not different but brilliant(in science stuff) too.I'm happy that he too may become awesome as NTA in future as DIFFERENCE IS ALL THAT MATTERS TO ACHIEVE SMTHING.And in our eyes u r truly an achiever NTA no matter what the system says.Can u tell me NTA if any of your "NORMAL" mates is more popular than u ?THAT'S ALL U NEED FOR INSPIRATION.

By the way i felt too sorry for NTA that i even cared making a post which is ernestly HATE.

I know how you fell NTA, being treated like that. Same stuff happened to me, taking antidepressants and antipsychotics and stuff. The system really fucked you over and i really feel sorry for you, i feel you man. If you have issues take your time, 4D1 can wait.

All I can say [as the case is in India] if you wanna get back into the system the goto a political party tell them ur problem promise them ull vote for them[maybe give them some money(MAYBE)] and then just wait and watch if it dosent happen then all the schools in the locality will be burned destroyed or bombed[yeah thats India for u]...

Or Bas you could go to your mother and just stay with her take a vacation to the sea.. enjoy life [burn ur PC](NOT LITERALLY) just do whatever you like... take nice long hot showers... take the small pleasures of life, cherish life watch the Discovery Channel,,,, read some nice books.... play some board games(like Ludo,Monopoly,Poker,etc) with family and friends.... go for an adventure trip somewhere remote ... just empty ur mind and enjoy... take a walk on the beach with beer in ur hand and see the Sunset .......

All I can say [as the case is in India] if you wanna get back into the system the goto a political party tell them ur problem promise them ull vote for them[maybe give them some money(MAYBE)] and then just wait and watch if it dosent happen then all the schools in the locality will be burned destroyed or bombed[yeah thats India for u]...

Or Bas you could go to your mother and just stay with her take a vacation to the sea.. enjoy life [burn ur PC](NOT LITERALLY) just do whatever you like... take nice long hot showers... take the small pleasures of life, cherish life watch the Discovery Channel,,,, read some nice books.... play some board games(like Ludo,Monopoly,Poker,etc) with family and friends.... go for an adventure trip somewhere remote ... just empty ur mind and enjoy... take a walk on the beach with beer in ur hand and see the Sunset .......

 

... what? At least the bottom part made some sense. Ish.

Fine. I read it completely. But what should I do? Should I cry? Should I just do nothing because it or commit a suicide? I am really sorry about your tough life, NTA, but all I care about is the present and the future. Sorry, but that is how i feel about it.

IT DOESNT MATTER WHAT YOU SHOULD DO, JABRONI ! I DON'T GIVE A PHUCK WHAT YOU SHOULD DO, BECAUSE ILL SHIT ON YOUR PORCH AND ILL SLAP YOU IN THE FACE AND ILL STEAL YOUR NEWSPAPER MOTHERPHUCKER, GTFO NOBODY CARES HOW YOU FEEL ABOUT HIM.

Damn. Now that's.....that's...that's some story. But NTA, you do what you gotta' do.

Fine, is there at least possibility of exporting our IW4 stats?

 

Ooh the idiocy in your comment. Do us all a favor, get the fuck out of here.

 

@NTA, do what you want to do. Life's a bitch and I'm sure most of us know that by now. Regardless of whether you've experienced a great life with many good things in the future, or a disaster of a life and terrible things in the future. We all experience the good and the bad and eventually you'll find what you're looking for.

 

Best of luck,

 

BoomShotKapow

oh that's really similar to my school life

I feel so sad for you ; and beleive me I had the same feeling once ... -long story-; i hope that get throw this... ; and from my experiance ; i would say to you : "NEVER GIVE UP !"

Had you been in the U.S., despite all your perceived problems, you could've completed school pretty normally.

I say fuck the system! Do what you like, when you like! No need to continue 4D1 if you don't want to anymore. There's always someone else who can keep it alive, if you let them. You don't have to have the main lead anymore, let another coder take over while you take a vacation from all of this interwebs shit.

All I can say [as the case is in India] if you wanna get back into the system the goto a political party tell them ur problem promise them ull vote for them[maybe give them some money(MAYBE)] and then just wait and watch if it dosent happen then all the schools in the locality will be burned destroyed or bombed[yeah thats India for u]...

 

What? Just..... what?

 

Just because you live in some backward part of your country where people 'bomb or burn' your schools because you don't vote for them, Doesn't mean that everyone in India lives like that.

 

[yeah thats India for u]

 

Hmmph

All I can say [as the case is in India] if you wanna get back into the system the goto a political party tell them ur problem promise them ull vote for them[maybe give them some money(MAYBE)] and then just wait and watch if it dosent happen then all the schools in the locality will be burned destroyed or bombed[yeah thats India for u]...

 

What? Just..... what?

 

Just because you live in some backward part of your country where people 'bomb or burn' your schools because you don't vote for them, Doesn't mean that everyone in India lives like that.

 

[yeah thats India for u]

 

Hmmph

._.

^3exPanD":3c4tx6ps]I know how you fell NTA, being treated like that. Same stuff happened to me, taking antidepressants and antipsychotics and stuff. The system really fucked you over and i really feel sorry for you, i feel you man. If you have issues take your time, 4D1 can wait.

 

What.. the system?

 

Something is wrong with you and suddenly the system is the problem. People are trying to help you, and if you don't fit in the endless solutions that are created for you in any way they offer aid for you, you are not left by the system. You left the system.

The people around you could assist you in your problems that you might encounter, if not that is not a lack of care (however this could be in some cases).

The fact that you are taking anti depressants and anti psychotic pills just proves eventually in your childhood you probably did not learn that much from your parents or you were unhappy. Behavior problems and social interaction problems are formed by life, not at birth.

Again not a problem related to the system. Maybe the problem is the fact that your father actually should be your uncle.

 

Of course people that feel related to your story are going to insult me now, as you clearly don't know better then to defend yourself. I don't understand their situation and stuff. No heck, everyone and their emo feelings are always trapped inside and you are misunderstood by everyone.

 

Or is that the problem? Hmm.. Heck, what do I know about this stuff. Seems rather complicated, I don't understand it. I think I'll blame the system.

 

Want some advice? Get your game up, get ready and start playing. Life is for everyone what you make of it.

^3exPanD":35afjm83]I know how you fell NTA, being treated like that. Same stuff happened to me, taking antidepressants and antipsychotics and stuff. The system really fucked you over and i really feel sorry for you, i feel you man. If you have issues take your time, 4D1 can wait.

 

What.. the system?

 

Something is wrong with you and suddenly the system is the problem. People are trying to help you, and if you don't fit in the endless solutions that are created for you in any way they offer aid for you, you are not left by the system. You left the system.

The people around you could assist you in your problems that you might encounter, if not that is not a lack of care (however this could be in some cases).

The fact that you are taking anti depressants and anti psychotic pills just proves eventually in your childhood you probably did not learn that much from your parents or you were unhappy. Behavior problems and social interaction problems are formed by life, not at birth.

Again not a problem related to the system. Maybe the problem is the fact that your father actually should be your uncle.

 

Of course people that feel related to your story are going to insult me now, as you clearly don't know better then to defend yourself. I don't understand their situation and stuff. No heck, everyone and their emo feelings are always trapped inside and you are misunderstood by everyone.

 

Or is that the problem? Hmm.. Heck, what do I know about this stuff. Seems rather complicated, I don't understand it. I think I'll blame the system.

 

Want some advice? Get your game up, get ready and start playing. Life is for everyone what you make of it.

 

 

 

It's not always the system it can be you too ofc. I will not defend myself and start to insult you cause im not an immature idiot that will start crying any second cause someone shared their own opinion which is half true. I'm just saying been there, done that, but thinking about what happened in the past is just wrong. Just continue with you're life and make new stuff , make great progression etc... I will be fighting my Stupid Hard Depression my whole damn life and so what... *Life is a bitch, get over it* that what im saying, which is true LoL. Damn... where did this world come too... You can't even live normal anymore (but when could you). And you can't understand how is it cause you have never been there or you just don't want to understand, and not everyone is trapped inside, it's up to you if you wanna share you thought,feelings and problems with everyone. And about you're advice? It's damn true man. *Life is for everyone what you make of it - Vitality*

Damn NTA....that really sucks man...:/

I hope you will pick up your life again, and that you're able to get a good future, instead of being kicked from school again and stuff.

Best wishes, and maybe we will see you around here!!!

Greetz from a 4D1 player that always has been happy it existed

Fine. I read it completely. But what should I do? Should I cry? Should I just do nothing because it or commit a suicide? I am really sorry about your tough life, NTA, but all I care about is the present and the future. Sorry, but that is how i feel about it.

 

You are the reason NTAuthority's going to stop one day.

And this is why I hate school, pointless, unfair, etcetcetc.

The more I read about your life, the more I get to understand why are you doing such things, and the more I respect you.

quite funny actually. most people who are lazy in school wind up getting set back by one year, maybe two, or put down to a lower level if they had already reached secondary by that point - nothing too devastating.

 

now, let's look at another example: me!

 

from age 4 to 7, I had already developed such a *hate* for 'school', that I wound up doing anything I could to get away from it - oh, yes, I did still go, but I wound up making random scenes in various ways (shouting, pushing people, hitting people, lying on the floor, ...), eventually necessitating being sent home (well, 'waiting for my mother to pick me up') daily.

 

as it 'obviously' couldn't continue that way, in the end (September/October of 2000?) I was, well, gotten rid of. now, this was not at all due to being *lazy*, oh, not at all - I was 2 years ahead of my age, did certain classes on a level another year ahead, and the few things that still interested me were doing just fine.

 

so, 6 months after, I wound up in a psychiatric institution with plans being to be placed in a nearby special education location, presumably this weird 'special case' class already, as the following paragraph written some time ago for another story explains:

 

I was in some weird 'special education' instance back then, which was primarily a "let's put him here, where nobody has a problem with him" scenario -- as I may have stated before, it was in a class with around 6 other people, ranging in age between 13 and 17, and each receiving a completely varying array of tasks/educational material. the people there had varied issues, but this specific class was noted 'special care' - and was located next to the 'possible reintegration' class - as opposed to the other groups in that instance being a lot more like normal primary/secondary educational facilities. both were at the edge of one of the 2 'wings' of the small complex; and shared a random 'timeout room' people might be dragged to on rare occasions (with one exception - I got dragged into there at least weekly). oh, did I mention I was ~9-10 at the specific point I am talking about? more exception!

 

anyway, as I somehow was not very, well, obedient in that facility (possibly mainly resisting cases where I had to do a) chores or the everyone-in-their-room-do-something-on-your-own hours which were horribly boring due to the lack of ability to observe/interact with other people), it eventually wound up taking a year and two months, with my 'stability' not having gotten much, well, better.

 

sometime before that, I was already in the aforementioned class; and things seemed to be going relatively fine for the first 1-2 years.

 

after that (let's say, 2003?), I wound up with firstly a shift in the educational material -- from 'later primary' to 'earlier secondary', though still had a complete lack of guidance or lesson plans. as this evidently couldn't bring the required amount of interest, a year after I got placed in a one-on-one 'side chamber' with a (somewhat-weak female) 'staff person' (can't really call them teachers, as they don't teach anything, they're more like the staff in psychiatric institutions), which went fine for the first half year.

 

and again, after that, a lack of interest started again; mainly as in my opinion these workbooks (which were intended to be completed within (half) a school year) were being completed way too slowly due to the lack of lesson plans - and some of the other placed 'lessons' were just, well, annoying, due to the same lack of guidance, presumably. so, resistance, being dragged away, suspended another 2 times, fine, fine, fineeee.

 

then, another day, another case of being dragged away, this time I was able to kick a letter box off a wall while being dragged, whoa, strike three, awesome, what, leave the building and you're no longer allowed to enter? well, fuck, as I was told I had to go to some weird facility for manyyears if that event would ever happen, which would make it impossible for me to do... well... my interesting server/web stuff!

 

anyway, as I was later told, that never happened as at home I was mostly 'manageable' - heck, the suggested alternative by government people was being placed in a juvenile prison... and from that point on I was no longer attending any education.

 

for a few months?, my mother tried to resolve that situation, but eventually gave up; nobody seemed to have any interest in me with the violent parts of my past. (hey, explain to me, how is this legal? oh, wait, there's an exception where in case the child was not able to attend school due to psychological issues, an exception could be granted. just my luck!)

 

I also used to be scared to even mention the fact that I wasn't attending any education to anyone, as there 'could very well have been a person who reported it, and then I'd be placed in such a facility for the rest of the coming years.'

 

anyway, let's interject here - if around the usual start of secondary education, and ignoring the past violence (as it was all response to physical restraint) an attempt would have been made at insertion into standard 'first year of secondary education' at an appropriately-challenging level (or even those hybrid levels that normal people in NL may have wound up in the first year, with the final level only being decided at the end), and no expectation was made of a full issue-less execution (with a diagnosis of PDD-NOS to provide as reason), things would presumably have wound up just fine. then again, nobody did that.

 

so, after moving to the land of opportunity beautiful Dutch-like languages that have been completely fucked over by someone inserting a lot of " characters and verbosity, my brother got assigned to a school the 'usual way', with again nobody bothering to care about me, as I was doing just fineeeeeeee coding around and such.

 

well, except for a mention at one conversation with the director of my brother's school, which eventually wound up in a full-scale attempt in September of 2009. now, academically, that attempt went 'as expected' - despite not knowing the language nor any of the subject matter apart from English, I went along just fine - it was more the social part that completely fucked up, as a nice side effect of the past lack of social experience developed...

 

... 'references'. me performing unfair comparisons to (in this case) people who have been in the educational system and whatnot for most of their conscious life, who have been together in the same class for 4+ years, and that eventually causing a huge amount of emotional instability - mostly instant at a 'reference-causing' event, which even to this day can and will cause symptoms such as elevated temperature perception, hyperactivity, depression-like mood changes, anger and a number of other fun things.

 

during a long chain of events, these references caused me to be 'suspended' for 2 weeks, during which I missed a certain introduction into what would be done the first day of 'school' (technically, a work experience case) after the suspension, during which I would have been able to state I did not want to do such (and as I read last year, that actually was an option for me - ha-ha, yes, I actually was allowed to not do as much as I didn't want to do, just that I mostly forced myself to do those things as I wanted to be more like the other students, and it never got through to me that I actually was able to say 'screw you, I'm not doing this' to anything; rather, I just wound up silently crying in those cases as I somehow couldn't get myself to do the things the other students seemed able to do without any problems)

 

anyway, then a disagreement came with the 'aide' I was forced to have during that case (1 month in I stated I did not want her -- yes, another weak female! -- to even be present anymore, as I wanted to do stuff on my own and only found her presence restricting), I went a bit emotional and somewhat violent, and as she was a 'weak female', she pretty much didn't want anything to do with me anymore after that.

 

so, then I was out of education, again, but this time over the year after, more people came along to mainly talk about the past issues, but none really came to a proper solution at all - most were surprised at how it was never attempted to place me there without any aide or whatnot.

 

some later cases in another psychiatric facility and non-mainstream 'get a low-level completion certificate and gtfo' locations had similar issues - emotional instability caused by me being, well, too different from the other people, and no matter how I pushed myself to 'be more sociable', I could never get myself to do such to the majority of the people I came across there (let alone being able to understand people with large amounts of background sound, like the earlier school hallways during breaks), and neither did they like my 'weirdness' much.

 

anyway, it's amazing how people can be lazy all the time and yet only get screwed over slightly, while other people like me never even got a proper chance to recover due to having been out of the system for years, and therefore being really easily emotionally affected - psychological trauma caused by the realization of the years I had lost being out of the system from 2000 to 2009? seems like it.

 

heck, any future scenario where I'd be with 'peers' has the threat of being endangered by such emotional instability, even if I would manage to initiate and maintain contact with the probable average of 1/10-1/20 of people in a 'generic' sample being used for contact in case of simultaneous insertion, later realizations (for instance, of having less contact than some of the other people I'd come across) could very well affect emotional stability in a similar way.

 

if any such scenario would ever occur within time, at least I now somewhat have a description of what causes such, unlike in 2010 where I couldn't clearly state any of the problems I had during that era before being removed from the scenario. heck, at least it's not the language that'd prevent social interaction, if anything would be prevented by it it's more likely to be anything outside of that.

 

(in the end, I apologize to any readers who can't read the way I state things here - most of these things are really hard to get into words in any of the languages I speak, and English is the most fluid of all for longer writings nowadays as Dutch has been underused in the past years; sadly this also makes for the German people who need to understand my issues to be unable to read any of the things I write about them to full effect)

 

Dear good, we are awfully similar except being in psyhiatric facilities and and moving from one country to another (also my dad didn't leave me). I can understand you really well as i was really unstable myself (im a lot better now).

 

I hope you find a solution.

Dear good, we are awfully similar except being in psyhiatric facilities and and moving from one country to another (also my dad didn't leave me). I can understand you really well as i was really unstable myself (im a lot better now).

 

I hope you find a solution.

Don't quote the whole post

or else k00p's computer can't handle it. ._.

 

Damn man. What a story. You sure got screwed over as a child :/ What you have done for the gaming community will never be forgotten. You are a brilliant person, you'll figure everything out. I know I'm just a common user among a million others on 4D1, but if you ever need any help with anything, I'm here.