... I appear to be a complete failure. Surely, I created what many 14-year-old kids call 'omg best free ever' and causes them to ask 'i want play' more so than usual (also known as 'alterIWnet', including the even-worse DemonWare experiments you all more than know about), but generally I'm still a failure.

 

Whereas other people at this age (I'm born in 1993-08, for the record) have at least a shitty job for no reason other than some random income (or if lucky have an actual sensible job that requires some skill), have at least completed secondary education (unless definitely stupid or something terrible has gone wr-- ohwait, that is actually my case), have at least a few real-life contacts (bah, I hate saying 'real-life'; it sounds so overused), seem to be well-underway to their final position in 'the real world' (oh, that's a bad term too. the real world. really? I've read about it, I don't have any false hopes, mainly due to reading TDWTF and all that) and don't seem to be stuck in a country of which they can't speak the main language properly (either due to their parents moving there at a much earlier stage in life, or not having moved whatsoever), I'm stuck in a weird position.

 

How weird, you might say? Well, currently I'm a) sitting at home all day, doing nearly nothing except for reading the aIW and alterBlitz, semi-officially, asdfghjkl;'\ IRC and sleeping, not having any income whatsoever, seeing as my last means of income (around 100 euros monthly out of the quite substantial advertising revenue aIW made) disappeared, c) living on my own off of weird government support (German 'financial help for young adults being taught self-help skills' or something) which will expire in a few months with only a negligible chance of renewal (whose idea was it that I had to live on my own anyway? oh, wait, the people in the second facility I wound up in during my 2011 'leave', how I wound up there is yet another chain of WTFery; they sold my mother on it quite well combined with the issues I've been causing at home before that leave) after which I'll likely have to get a shitty job (how awesome, a no-skills-required idiot job, how great is that for self-esteem), relocate (as the current apartment wouldn't be able to be paid by a low-grade job) and not have enough time left for following an education (as those jobs are clearly meant for low-intelligence individuals who are to wind up stuck in there forever).

 

Oh, yes, 'education'. That thing that serves nearly no purpose whatsoever except for acquiring formal qualifications which most companies will require before even allowing a hiring candidate to get to the point of, well, being a 'candidate'. Now, don't get me wrong; some educations do actually serve a purpose (for instance, I can only barely understand a thing of matrix transformations from what I read online, and these newfangled quaternion things make no sense to me at all), but the ones some people (oh, and I will get into 'examples' shortly - don't blame me if you see yourself reflected in one of my unfair comparisons) seem to follow serve absolutely no sensible purpose whatsoever. To people who actually know what they are doing, that is. To people who don't, well, they do somewhat teach them what to do, and they usually wind up making garbage code Anyway, I'm quite adaptable to most environments (unless they require you to know [weird CPU] assembly, matrix transformations, oddly-parallel programming, image processing or anything algorithmic for that matter; you get my point) and would function more appropriately than some of my following examples.

 

[examples cut as motivation for this topic was drying up, might come at a later time]

humm ... seems like u having a trouble some life ......is there any way we can help u ...

regarding advertising why don't u put one on this .......

 

i think work some Open Source community you will finally get a nice job ??? i am born 1994, i think u should get into a nice college??

U all live in UK right ?? its highly expensive there ...unlike my country...u can get enough food here for 2 pounds

 

EDIT 1 : Atleast u didn't get sued like geohot did ??? http://www.geohot.com/

he is a real genius man but sony sued him

 

EDIT 2: ya man u are a great devloper, think about the world in which no one tried to be opensource, linux wouldn't have existed ...U are asset to the community Free Cheerrs

NTA, don't be so harsh on yourself, your not a failure... In fact your anything BUT a failure. You are a great developer who was generous enough to take your time and DONATE it to this great world wide project that has become a huge success/ failure (failure if we are talking about aIW. There is still a job out there for you waiting for someone that has the exact same skills you have to come up to them and accep their offer. You don't even have to be on the ORC or the Forums, I would gO out and get a job and go on the irc and forums later. ( sorry don't know where your developIng will come in). U r not a failure whatsoever, if you were, you wouldn't have this site, this community, worl wide recognition, or AlterIW!! And anyone that has world wide recognition deserves a job. Hoping you wake up and sleep the fresh batch file waiting to be clicked on soon.

Cheers,

WindowsSe7en

humm ... seems like u having a trouble some life ......is there any way we can help u ...

regarding advertising why don't u put one on this .......

Advertising doesn't make you rich, unless you happen to strike it lucky. aIW was one of those cases, sadly I wasn't the one collecting the advertising money.

 

i think work some Open Source community you will finally get a nice job ??? i am born 1994, i think u should get into a nice college??

i think make no sense sentence

 

U all live in UK right ?? its highly expensive there ...unlike my country...u can get enough food here for 2 pounds

Germany. Still a first-world country. Then again, wages are lower in 'those' countries as well.

 

EDIT 1 : Atleast u didn't get sued like geohot did ??? http://www.geohot.com/

he is a real genius man but sony sued him

Well, no. Then again, I didn't make international news, I don't know PPC assembly or any of that, I just know how to make straightforward programs and reverse-engineer non-OOP x86 games.

NTA, don't be so harsh on yourself, your not a failure... In fact your anything BUT a failure. You are a great developer who was generous enough to take your time and DONATE it to this great world wide project that has become a huge success/ failure (failure if we are talking about aIW. There is still a job out there for you waiting for someone that has the exact same skills you have to come up to them and accep their offer. You don't even have to be on the ORC or the Forums, I would gO out and get a job and go on the irc and forums later. ( sorry don't know where your developIng will come in). U r not a failure whatsoever, if you were, you wouldn't have this site, this community, worl wide recognition, or AlterIW!! And anyone that has world wide recognition deserves a job. Hoping you wake up and sleep the fresh batch file waiting to be clicked on soon.

Cheers,

WindowsSe7en

Thanks, but this post is unreadable as any of your posts. Can't break it down and answer it in pieces as there's no pieces to answer to.

@NTA

Thats What u get when u use a crappish iPhone with the stupid auto correct mess up...

Even though all these logs are nice and long, it's also depressing to read about your life like this.

 

But I guess in your position it's just how things are :/

 

Would living in The Netherlands make a difference though?

Have you heard of a website called oDesk? It might help you.

Even though all these logs are nice and long, it's also depressing to read about your life like this.

Surely, I could make a positive twist on it, but then it'd wind up like a corporate press release of a doomed corporation.

 

But I guess in your position it's just how things are :/

Well, things seem fixable, but taking aaaaaaages.

 

Would living in The Netherlands make a difference though?

Outside of the language, not really.

Well maybe u should take part in some of the competetions, if u are in financial crysis ,i think facebook hacker will be best , its an evemt organised by facebook winner gets a worthy sum

 

and its basically code debugging or some stuff like that, i am going to take part this year , u can select language of ur preference ...many options available

$

i think prize money is $ 10,000

As much as I hate to say this, would you happen to have any interests in developing for a game company? Just a thought and not necessarily Activision.... You have great talent so it was just a thought. In my opinion any company other than IW would accept you, since your already well known by most major developing companies.

Another post about how bad your life is?

nothing new here

 

I could almost compare you to Wayne.

NTA, don't be so harsh on yourself, your not a failure... In fact your anything BUT a failure. You are a great developer who was generous enough to take your time and DONATE it to this great world wide project that has become a huge success/ failure (failure if we are talking about aIW. There is still a job out there for you waiting for someone that has the exact same skills you have to come up to them and accep their offer. You don't even have to be on the ORC or the Forums, I would gO out and get a job and go on the irc and forums later. ( sorry don't know where your developIng will come in). U r not a failure whatsoever, if you were, you wouldn't have this site, this community, worl wide recognition, or AlterIW!! And anyone that has world wide recognition deserves a job. Hoping you wake up and sleep the fresh batch file waiting to be clicked on soon.

Cheers,

WindowsSe7en

Thanks, but this post is unreadable as any of your posts. Can't break it down and answer it in pieces as there's no pieces to answer to.

 

You wanna know why you can't answer his post in pieces? Because it is isn't a post to answer, it is a post to read and to give you some hope and power to make something of your life

Just wondering, what's the worst part for you?

By the way, you don't need starting qualifications for some jobs. You're pretty good with codes so hack something, create something or show them the work you've done on aIW. Experience is worth a shit-ton more than some piece of paper with grades on it imho.

Experience is worth a shit-ton more than some piece of paper with grades on it imho.

That's your opinion. Nowadays it mostly doesn't even matter. Fucking eh, not even education matters when getting a job anymore. People get places (whether they're dumb as a bucket or smart as hell) thanks to connections, and I'd assume NT has little to none to help him out there. Although, there may be a few companies that may take appreciation in his skill and talent and even consider paying him for it, even though those might be rare.

You should right a autobiography; I for one would read it (though I suppose it would be quite short and boring).

 

And trust me school isn't great at all where I live, but it's probably better in The Netherlands as apparently Dutch children are the happiest…

Experience is worth a shit-ton more than some piece of paper with grades on it imho.

That's your opinion. Nowadays it mostly doesn't even matter. Fucking eh, not even education matters when getting a job anymore. People get places (whether they're dumb as a bucket or smart as hell) thanks to connections, and I'd assume NT has little to none to help him out there. Although, there may be a few companies that may take appreciation in his skill and talent and even consider paying him for it, even though those might be rare.

 

 

Just wondering, what's the worst part for you?

By the way, you don't need starting qualifications for some jobs. You're pretty good with codes so hack something, create something or show them the work you've done on aIW. Experience is worth a shit-ton more than some piece of paper with grades on it imho.

 

well i think u are demotivating him , its not that easy to get a job ..... the people who gave look to aIW were 12 to 18 years old not any of the adults took a look at that ......only 12 years old came jabbering that

 

oh shit my MW2 not works more that 50 % of the topic was on this ........

 

and its not that easy in real life to get a job without a degree (a nice paid job not some irregular trash job ... with a nice job,with paid leaves and job security u can do devleopment in mean time )

Off-Topic

Learn to disable that in the settings..

Done.

Chain Up NT... fail now but it isn't going to mean you'll stay down at all times There's always success... Show them that education isn't everything that it needs to have a nice job...

You are a big winner NTA.

I think you are a friendly person in real life, so keep your head up.

 

If you understand german: Alles wird gut

Ok, Bas.

have at least a few real-life contacts

 

man. better to have a lot of grateful virtual friends, than having a few, or many real people that call themselves friends.

Well, since I am your friend (I'm sure you would agree), out of my heart, I do

Ugh, poorly written sentence.

 

My point is, you know you're in difficult times, yet I can't see any obvious approach to rectify it. Have you tried contacting game companies (or supermarkets, for that matter) for an interim job or a work experience placement? If you do do well, I'm sure they will offer you a real job, and perhaps offer you lodgings and travel expenses as well. You can't just go on complaining about your shitty life (perhaps being a bit blunt, but you have thought about censored act of ending oneself's life << before, so I am justified in saying so), and not just do nothing about it, until your government payouts run dry. You need a place to start, and whether that be the shitty supermarket job that annoyingbob92 keeps pestering you about, or working for Activision, a job is a job. I refuse to believe that there are no suitable work placements in your small town/city/whateveryoucallit.

 

You have the required conversational and technical skills, and you are a very friendly (hell, even randomly being very funny) person (well, from talking to you on Skype for a total of >24 hours anyway). I'm sure you will have success in the future, give your previous "achievements" and your situation.

 

This way or another, you have my full support. You know that.

:~)

@NTA:

 

Get a job.

 

Seriously, even though it had legal repercussions, AlterIWnet is a genuine proof of uncommon talent which will quickly convince many ICT/Software/whatever companies out there.

 

Hell, in the Netherlands (where many users appear to come from) they would probably know who and what you are right away.

 

Doesn't have to be fulltime. Get an income.

 

Incidentally braniacs of your apparent type are generally also good with the stock market.

@NTA

Thats What u get when u use a crappish iPhone with the stupid auto correct mess up...

It's the colors Mason, on your signature. It has all the colors of the logo, just match them up...

@NTA

Thats What u get when u use a crappish iPhone with the stupid auto correct mess up...

It's the colors Mason, on your signature. It has all the colors of the logo, just match them up...

lol wut?