intended to write a long post in a more formal style, but as my brain is completely fucked up, I seem unable to do such.

 

anyway, I'm annoyed at pretty much being in a 'dead end' as for my further development; any tertiary education seems to need a proper proof of secondary education still, any external ways to get secondary education certificates only give you low-level ones which don't grant access to proper tertiary education but only some german wtf case which is completely crap as far as 'continued education' and 'outside-of-this-shit-country acceptance' compared to the dutch similar case (and the medium-level secondary actually granting access to a proper case as opposed to the naziland one)

 

in the meantime my brain seems to have completely fucked up, over the past months my focus issues have increased more, my sleep cycles seem to commonly wind up being 1 day of sleeping followed by 18 hours of being awake, I can't be bothered typing with capital letters on forums, my responses have gotten more sarcastic, I haven't written any code for nearly a month, it's like the HL2 EP1/2 Overwatch 'low-power' mode with sentence fragments such as 'ongoing sector sweep. biotics confirmed. continue surface sector sweep. remote compliance. exterminate. seek passive signature imprint. mandate sublevel restrictions.' which actually is similar to the so-called 'fallback' mind state which seems related to 'references' (i.e. people I compare-too-much to mentioning stuff which annoys me more) with words such as 'level 2 object validation sequence. segmentation validity referencing. control. maintain. persist.' - fun fact: the fourDeltaOne name originated from such sequences - which also happens more commonly with people I've acquainted in person.

 

then again, some things did improve, I seem commonly capable to actually talk about situation-related things to the people who actually need to know about those things, although they've directed me to 'write up an email recommending yourself to some educational institution to see if either a) some exception can be made to not require any preexisting stuff or there's an alternative shorter path to entry', though that was actually my idea in a long email I wrote to another person, the length of which actually surprises me. anyway, I still seem to have some annoying blockade preventing me from looking up such educational institutions, mainly a lack of knowing valid german search terms and my common 'no german allowed on my systems' implicit policy, let alone me being able to write the email (I've thought out parts of it, yes, also explaining reasoning for the past lack of education and the fuckups on the part of the prior institutions I've been in) in this state. at least I'm assuming that the to-be recipients actually know how to read english, as other people I've written to mainly ignore half of the text in their attempts to translate keeping the main sense of the text but losing all of the 'power' and 'convincing writing style'.

 

then there's a few other things that seem to be annoying, but they're irrelevant and possibly incorrect, so screw those.

NTA, if you tired for exaust work, tell to us

 

Edit: get a little 4D1 vacations, get rest, we can do this as allways, thereВґs why its exists Tech Supporters

Yeah, I think you deservee some time off, I was scanning the forums.. You seem to help everyone in every way possible..

Sleep thing is really annoying, I find myself in the same issue.

 

Since you're not used to sleep so much, you get some fucking annoying cycles which are bad, I have the same thing, I can't sleep normally, I went back to school and I still have this problems, for example I'm having school in 3 hours, and I'm still there not sleeping, and when I sleep, it's 6 am, then I can't wake up for school, I missed like 7 days since the 6th Sep.

 

 

 

What you should try, is taking back a sleep time, like waiting for being exhausted and then sleep soon, like in 10 pm, and force yourself to wake up at 9 am, the brain will be used to this life way.

Doing that a few consecutive days should improve the sleep.

 

 

I'm trying that today, since I won't sleep till 10 pm and then wake up like a 'normal' person.

Sleep thing is really annoying, I find myself in the same issue.

 

Since you're not used to sleep so much, you get some fucking annoying cycles which are bad, I have the same thing, I can't sleep normally, I went back to school and I still have this problems, for example I'm having school in 3 hours, and I'm still there not sleeping, and when I sleep, it's 6 am, then I can't wake up for school, I missed like 7 days since the 6th Sep.

 

 

 

What you should try, is taking back a sleep time, like waiting for being exhausted and then sleep soon, like in 10 pm, and force yourself to wake up at 9 am, the brain will be used to this life way.

Doing that a few consecutive days should improve the sleep.

 

 

I'm trying that today, since I won't sleep till 10 pm and then wake up like a 'normal' person.

gamer-school life is fucked up :s

Sleep thing is really annoying, I find myself in the same issue.

 

Since you're not used to sleep so much, you get some fucking annoying cycles which are bad, I have the same thing, I can't sleep normally, I went back to school and I still have this problems, for example I'm having school in 3 hours, and I'm still there not sleeping, and when I sleep, it's 6 am, then I can't wake up for school, I missed like 7 days since the 6th Sep.

 

 

 

What you should try, is taking back a sleep time, like waiting for being exhausted and then sleep soon, like in 10 pm, and force yourself to wake up at 9 am, the brain will be used to this life way.

Doing that a few consecutive days should improve the sleep.

 

 

I'm trying that today, since I won't sleep till 10 pm and then wake up like a 'normal' person.

gamer-school life is fucked up :s

+1

oh look at that, people are only commenting on the only issue they know anything about, and adding their awesome reasoning to it which is exactly one of the annoyances I didn't bother with.

 

same with people just caring about opposite-gender contact and ignoring my complaints about no 'proper' in-person contact because they can't identify with it

From what I read,

- You need to fix the sleeping issue ASAP, not much progress will be done if your body's all tired and worn out.

- Do you live in Germany? Have you considered studying outside of the country? Establishing yourself somewhere else?

- After you fix your sleeping schedule, you may be able to go outside and interact with people in a more normal way. The internets make you a lone wolf... some balance interacting with people IRL is constantly needed.

- Reading books can help. No chicken soup for the soul, there are many serious books out there regarding personal success. They can give you hints on what to do in certain situations, and keep you in a constructive state of mind.

Of course nobody here is in your shoes, and thus we won't fully understand the problem, but the most important step (IMO) is to change your mind and being positive. Some stuff can be hard to achieve, but with a lot of effort, discipline and tenacity we can eventually reach them.

Cheers

From what I read,

- You need to fix the sleeping issue ASAP, not much progress will be done if your body's all tired and worn out.

- Do you live in Germany? Have you considered studying outside of the country? Establishing yourself somewhere else?

- After you fix your sleeping schedule, you may be able to go outside and interact with people in a more normal way. The internets make you a lone wolf... some balance interacting with people IRL is constantly needed.

- Reading books can help. No chicken soup for the soul, there are many serious books out there regarding personal success. They can give you hints on what to do in certain situations, and keep you in a constructive state of mind.

Of course nobody here is in your shoes, and thus we won't fully understand the problem, but the most important step (IMO) is to change your mind and being positive. Some stuff can be hard to achieve, but with a lot of effort, discipline and tenacity we can eventually reach them.

Cheers

 

- Maybe, but what kind of progress are you reffering to?

- Without any starting qualification, how would he be able to follow proper education outside his own country?

- How many times that isn't suggested, some things are easier to say then to achieve in this scenario.

- Motivational speaker 101?

NT, didn't we discuss this already back at aIW in the staff forum? You need to let people help you, and you are not letting them because of such crap like the language. And I know the language problem. Do you think it was easy for me going to school without knowing the language? And Instead of complaining, I just did it. And now I speak perfect Germish.

If you really want to change your life, you can do it. All you need to do is to suck it up, get up your ass, even if you don't like it.

oh look at that, people are only commenting on the only issue they know anything about, and adding their awesome reasoning to it which is exactly one of the annoyances I didn't bother with.

 

 

 

The 'only' issue? That's people who have experienced this 'only' issue trying to share their 'reasoning' since they are in the same position.

if you screw up your biorhythm than you are in trouble cause when you stay up like to 3 or 5 a.m and when your constantly doing this than you screw up your biorhythm the easiest way to stop this is by go to sleep at 10.00 pm or if you cant then just wake up early in the morning(like 6 to 7 a.m) and constantly repeat this) this will balance things a bit! this if you have sleeping problems!

Just take a break from the internet, computer and do something what relaxes you.

NT, didn't we discuss this already back at aIW in the staff forum? You need to let people help you, and you are not letting them because of such crap like the language. And I know the language problem. Do you think it was easy for me going to school without knowing the language? And Instead of complaining, I just did it. And now I speak perfect Germish.

If you really want to change your life, you can do it. All you need to do is to suck it up, get up your ass, even if you don't like it.

Again, these days I seem able to speak German properly, the only problem is writing it properly.

NTA, I'm french and I just moved to Vienna a month ago. I "learnt" a bit of german in France but anyone that's ever bben to a french (public) school knows what it truely is...SO I'm currently attending the french highschool of Vienna AKA "Das LycГ©e", it's a classical highschool with all those things you know there are: hipsters, popular boys and girls, skaters, potheads, nerds, etc. You would think that since they attend a french school they would mostly be French or at least have french as their first language...but no ! not at all, I figure that out of 2000 boys and girls, less than 10% of them are in that situation while the 90% left are Austrian, German, Romanian, Polish or Czech. And they all speak fluent german, and they allspeak it all the time and I don't speak german at all and noone bothers to speak in french with me since I'm new and French, and Austrian people don't like French people so much...fucked up isn't it ? However, I get by with a little help from my friends I try and do what I can, work when it's work time and drink when it's beer time (you must have experienced that too ). I play nice and easy, waiting to make myself a name in this damn country. NTA, really, this is NOT a big issue.

 

Edit : Just noticed my post semmed a bit childish and your situation is way more complex than mine...however, your life translated in code was pretty fun to read, but bear in mind that most of us "geeks" have the same sleeping issues, at least I do. I'm aslo quite depressed all day long, can't seem to find motivation to get to work seriously and fail at being sociable with the people in Vienna. I find weed is a good remedy, although it's no solution, it helps you get that composure you need to not give a fuck sometimes and focus on being happy for the short term. You just need to find YOUR own remedy. Carpe Diem, my friend.

NT, didn't we discuss this already back at aIW in the staff forum? You need to let people help you, and you are not letting them because of such crap like the language. And I know the language problem. Do you think it was easy for me going to school without knowing the language? And Instead of complaining, I just did it. And now I speak perfect Germish.

If you really want to change your life, you can do it. All you need to do is to suck it up, get up your ass, even if you don't like it.

Again, these days I seem able to speak German properly, the only problem is writing it properly.

If you need any help, I'm always open to correct your letters/texts whatever. Either correcting not "properly" written ones, or translating from English to formal correct German.

Don't hesitate to contact me.

NT, didn't we discuss this already back at aIW in the staff forum? You need to let people help you, and you are not letting them because of such crap like the language. And I know the language problem. Do you think it was easy for me going to school without knowing the language? And Instead of complaining, I just did it. And now I speak perfect Germish.

If you really want to change your life, you can do it. All you need to do is to suck it up, get up your ass, even if you don't like it.

Again, these days I seem able to speak German properly, the only problem is writing it properly.

 

Noone will reject you just because of some minor grammar/spelling mistakes. Just try to arrange an interview, if they hear you speak german, they wont mind your slightly broken writen german.

 

Ps: I could help you if you wish

NT, didn't we discuss this already back at aIW in the staff forum? You need to let people help you, and you are not letting them because of such crap like the language. And I know the language problem. Do you think it was easy for me going to school without knowing the language? And Instead of complaining, I just did it. And now I speak perfect Germish.

If you really want to change your life, you can do it. All you need to do is to suck it up, get up your ass, even if you don't like it.

Again, these days I seem able to speak German properly, the only problem is writing it properly.

 

it isn't your fault; that crazy nazi language has all kinds of crazy characters in it and stuff...

 

anyways, why don't you move back to Holland ._.

anyways, why don't you move back to Holland ._.

didn't know money was free

it isn't your fault; that crazy nazi language has all kinds of crazy characters in it and stuff...

 

Your signature is perfect for that post...

it isn't your fault; that crazy nazi language has all kinds of crazy characters in it and stuff...

ohbtw, dutch has even more, though they're somewhat-optional in most words there in informal usage.

it isn't your fault; that crazy nazi language has all kinds of crazy characters in it and stuff...

ohbtw, dutch has even more, though they're somewhat-optional in most words there in informal usage.

>crazy characters

> abcdefghijklmnopqrstuvwxyz; öüä (only these 3 can be considered crazy/unusual)

>Implying dutch is easier to learn than german

it isn't your fault; that crazy nazi language has all kinds of crazy characters in it and stuff...

ohbtw, dutch has even more, though they're somewhat-optional in most words there in informal usage.

 

It is considered as one of the hardest languages to learn on the entire world.

> abcdefghijklmnopqrstuvwxyz; öüä (only these 3 can be considered crazy/unusual)

how about Гџ

Oh, I forgot the Гџ. It is used rarely anyway.

Oh, I forgot the Гџ. It is used rarely anyway.

Just replace it by 'ss'

 

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