intended to write a long post in a more formal style, but as my brain is completely fucked up, I seem unable to do such.

 

anyway, I'm annoyed at pretty much being in a 'dead end' as for my further development; any tertiary education seems to need a proper proof of secondary education still, any external ways to get secondary education certificates only give you low-level ones which don't grant access to proper tertiary education but only some german wtf case which is completely crap as far as 'continued education' and 'outside-of-this-shit-country acceptance' compared to the dutch similar case (and the medium-level secondary actually granting access to a proper case as opposed to the naziland one)

 

in the meantime my brain seems to have completely fucked up, over the past months my focus issues have increased more, my sleep cycles seem to commonly wind up being 1 day of sleeping followed by 18 hours of being awake, I can't be bothered typing with capital letters on forums, my responses have gotten more sarcastic, I haven't written any code for nearly a month, it's like the HL2 EP1/2 Overwatch 'low-power' mode with sentence fragments such as 'ongoing sector sweep. biotics confirmed. continue surface sector sweep. remote compliance. exterminate. seek passive signature imprint. mandate sublevel restrictions.' which actually is similar to the so-called 'fallback' mind state which seems related to 'references' (i.e. people I compare-too-much to mentioning stuff which annoys me more) with words such as 'level 2 object validation sequence. segmentation validity referencing. control. maintain. persist.' - fun fact: the fourDeltaOne name originated from such sequences - which also happens more commonly with people I've acquainted in person.

 

then again, some things did improve, I seem commonly capable to actually talk about situation-related things to the people who actually need to know about those things, although they've directed me to 'write up an email recommending yourself to some educational institution to see if either a) some exception can be made to not require any preexisting stuff or there's an alternative shorter path to entry', though that was actually my idea in a long email I wrote to another person, the length of which actually surprises me. anyway, I still seem to have some annoying blockade preventing me from looking up such educational institutions, mainly a lack of knowing valid german search terms and my common 'no german allowed on my systems' implicit policy, let alone me being able to write the email (I've thought out parts of it, yes, also explaining reasoning for the past lack of education and the fuckups on the part of the prior institutions I've been in) in this state. at least I'm assuming that the to-be recipients actually know how to read english, as other people I've written to mainly ignore half of the text in their attempts to translate keeping the main sense of the text but losing all of the 'power' and 'convincing writing style'.

 

then there's a few other things that seem to be annoying, but they're irrelevant and possibly incorrect, so screw those.

Well ask them to ask their teachers about the "other options" maybe they don't know but teachers or administration people should know about the "other options" if the exist :?

now you're really stretching it, I'm not going to ask people to ask people about things they shouldn't even be bothered with

now you're really stretching it, I'm not going to ask people to ask people about things they shouldn't even be bothered with

 

Well that's a tricky idea but well it could give some results

 

Anyway you should try to get more infos about those other ways to access high education level in Germany or NL.

Anyway you should try to get more infos about those other ways to access high education level in Germany or NL.

why bringing up NL, I clearly don't live there

 

also where would I find such info, I also don't know search terms

Anyway you should try to get more infos about those other ways to access high education level in Germany or NL.

why bringing up NL, I clearly don't live there

 

But maybe you could try leaving Germany because it don't seems like the best country to study, going there by bus or plane does not seem that unrealisitc, if you try keeping some money, still you'd have to find a place to live out there and stuffs...

But maybe you could try leaving Germany because it don't seems like the best country to study, going there by bus or plane does not seem that unrealisitc, if you try keeping some money, still you'd have to find a place to live out there and stuffs...

yes and that'd cost a lot and such, would need around 4000 eur which I would only get in like 10 months or so

 

also, >plane

train train train

yes and that'd cost a lot and such, would need around 4000 eur which I would only get in like 10 months or so

 

also, >plane

train train train

 

Well 10 months is not such a big big delay, I mean it's at least a plan and if you'd be able to go to a school or stuff you'd have to wait around a year or so to match with the renewing class cycle...

Well 10 months is not such a big big delay, I mean it's at least a plan and if you'd be able to go to a school or stuff you'd have to wait around a year or so to match with the renewing class cycle...

I'd still have to spend those 10 months without buying anything, and even then I'd only be able to survive for like 2-3 months.

Well 10 months is not such a big big delay, I mean it's at least a plan and if you'd be able to go to a school or stuff you'd have to wait around a year or so to match with the renewing class cycle...

I'd still have to spend those 10 months without buying anything, and even then I'd only be able to survive for like 2-3 months.

 

Well if you do it with 300€ or 250€ maybe it can solve the problem, still you'd have live with not that much money and the delay will be bigger.

May I ask you, why is 4 years long education a nope from you?

 

Logically, seems like the best option. You can't get anything without sacrifice. And you would be able to get a proper job after finishing that. No pain no gain.

May I ask you, why is 4 years long education a nope from you?

>4

didn't I say 8-9?

 

Logically, seems like the best option. You can't get anything without sacrifice. And you would be able to get a proper job after finishing that. No pain no gain.

it was 4 years of general education. the specific one still would follow.

I misread something then

 

Anyway, if it's something you would ENJOY doing for the rest of your life and will give you €€€, it's surely worth it.

Anyway, if it's something you would ENJOY doing for the rest of your life and will give you €€€, it's surely worth it.

and I'm not even sure about that

About the sleep issues:

Try starving yourself for 16 hours and then eating. Your body will take that as the new 'morning'.

As for the focus issues:

Amphetamines?

About the sleep issues:

Try starving yourself for 16 hours and then eating. Your body will take that as the new 'morning'.

maybe yours does, I don't have any rhythm where I eat during the morning, never did. also, I've even not eaten anything for a full day, so that's nothing uncommon.

 

As for the focus issues:

Amphetamines?

hard to obtain, and the illegal methods aren't pre-dosed

About the sleep issues:

Try starving yourself for 16 hours and then eating. Your body will take that as the new 'morning'.

maybe yours does, I don't have any rhythm where I eat during the morning, never did. also, I've even not eaten anything for a full day, so that's nothing uncommon.

Try forcing yourself into a proper sleep rhythm. Sleeping 18 hrs ist not healthy at all

 

As for the focus issues:

Amphetamines?

hard to obtain, and the illegal methods aren't pre-dosed

Ineed. Getting such meda legally is associated with huge bureaucracy, thus time and money.

And getting it illegaly is somehow risky, plus you cant really know if its real or just some streched stuff.

However, I know a person. And I could afford some of it. But sending it per mail is risky here in Germany. And to give it to you personally Id have the travel about 350 km. And sadly I dont have the money/car for that nor the time...

As for the focus issues:

Amphetamines?

hard to obtain, and the illegal methods aren't pre-dosed

Ineed. Getting such meda legally is associated with huge bureaucracy, thus time and money.

And getting it illegaly is somehow risky, plus you cant really know if its real or just some streched stuff.

However, I know a person. And I could afford some of it. But sending it per mail is risky here in Germany. And to give it to you personally Id have the travel about 350 km. And sadly I dont have the money/car for that nor the time...

 

Wait wait wait, are you really considering to take this shit ??

I mean the drawbacks are way bigger than the good things it can provide, just don't do this...

I didn't say that. Just pointing out the facts. Also taking Speed isn't that much different than drinking coffee or energy drinks. Yes, you can get addicted to it. Buy same goes for coffee/energy drinks.

As for the focus issues:

Amphetamines?

hard to obtain, and the illegal methods aren't pre-dosed

Ineed. Getting such meda legally is associated with huge bureaucracy, thus time and money.

And getting it illegaly is somehow risky, plus you cant really know if its real or just some streched stuff.

However, I know a person. And I could afford some of it. But sending it per mail is risky here in Germany. And to give it to you personally Id have the travel about 350 km. And sadly I dont have the money/car for that nor the time...

 

Wait wait wait, are you really considering to take this shit ??

I mean the drawbacks are way bigger than the good things it can provide, just don't do this...

All ADD/ADHD meds are, in fact, just amphetamines or derivatives.

As far as I can use my brain, you managed to attract more than 1.5m people at alterIWnet, with a single project. You should be more optimistic.

As far as I can use my brain, you managed to attract more than 1.5m people at alterIWnet, with a single project. You should be more optimistic.

Yeah sure that's fair, but it didn't deliver NTA anything, only that he becomes more and more annoyed over a lot of stuff.

 

Somehow a small side project where people have to chip in could've done the trick with his money problems, but as he already mentioned that coding isn't really something he wants to do for now.

 

If I won the lottery I would help him, but I'll have to keep dreaming for that to happen ;/

 

I guess time will tell...

If I won the lottery I would help him, but I'll have to keep dreaming for that to happen ;/

 

I guess time will tell...

We should all just do a charity project for him, wonder how much money we could get :>

If I won the lottery I would help him, but I'll have to keep dreaming for that to happen ;/

 

I guess time will tell...

We should all just do a charity project for him, wonder how much money we could get :>

A lot, I guess. Just remember the huge amount we got back at aIW when the server provider had to be changed.

 

Also, same here, Id like to help, but I am a poorfag as well.

If I won the lottery I would help him, but I'll have to keep dreaming for that to happen ;/

 

I guess time will tell...

We should all just do a charity project for him, wonder how much money we could get :>

A lot, I guess. Just remember the huge amount we got back at aIW when the server provider had to be changed.

 

Also, same here, Id like to help, but I am a poorfag as well.

 

I would gladly donate him some money, if he accepts PSC, when I get some :> like, 10€ a month or so... I know it isn't much, but it can help.

As far as I can use my brain, you managed to attract more than 1.5m people at alterIWnet, with a single project. You should be more optimistic.

Yeah sure that's fair, but it didn't deliver NTA anything, only that he becomes more and more annoyed over a lot of stuff.

and more 'odd referencing', which increased instability over the first year.

As far as I can use my brain, you managed to attract more than 1.5m people at alterIWnet, with a single project. You should be more optimistic.

Yeah sure that's fair, but it didn't deliver NTA anything, only that he becomes more and more annoyed over a lot of stuff.

and more 'odd referencing', which increased instability over the first year.

Everyone loves the refs.