random fact: lately I play random music to keep myself from completely breaking down (crying, 'fallback state', breaking objects or the remote possibility of suicide attempts)

 

wonder why I still have some expectation things will ever wind up properly

 

as they won't.

NTA you`re scaring us stop with these posts

Okay man, Im serious now: Get out, go walking around some lakes, forests and most important:

Stay away from your PC the next few days.

we should DDOS or hack NTA... for his own good

If you are playing some 'random' music, try some relaxing ones.

This is just.....

Get away from your goddamn PC. Go out, walking, get your thoughts in order (no 'pun' intended) and maybe in a couple of days (weeks, maybe, looking at his state right now), you'll feel a lot better.

Get out, go walking around some lakes, forests

I moved, no more exploration of that area. Not that I would have been able to, my endurance reduced to none since the first facility placement.

 

Stay away from your PC the next few days.

again no real alternatives exist except for sleep, and that ruins my stability even more.

If you are playing some 'random' music, try some relaxing ones.

how about upbeat stuff like the SMG soundtrack, that generally works nice

 

more ambient ones break stuff

Get out, go walking around some lakes, forests

I moved, no more exploration of that area. Not that I would have been able to, my endurance reduced to none since the first facility placement.

 

Stay away from your PC the next few days.

again no real alternatives exist except for sleep, and that ruins my stability even more.

Then you need to rebuild that endurance. How? Go walking.

Seriously, this is for your own good. I assume you do want to do something else besides sitting on the pc. But you refuse to do so claiming to have no alternatives. Well, then find some. There are some. Even it its just blatant thinks like hiking or such.

again no real alternatives exist except for sleep, and that ruins my stability even more.

 

Or maybe you've just not tried the (or looked at) alternatives. Bicycling, walking, drawing, going to the gym and even cleaning are a fine alternatives.

again no real alternatives exist except for sleep, and that ruins my stability even more.

 

Or maybe you've just not tried the (or looked at) alternatives. Bicycling, walking, drawing, going to the gym and even cleaning are a fine alternatives.

more looking for a 'mandatory' alternative.

 

also, any solitary activities are too boring

the remote possibility of suicide attempts?

 

What the hell? You should visit a shrink, seriously.. there's something going on that you can't fix by yourself.

the remote possibility of suicide attempts?

 

What the hell? You should visit a shrink, seriously.. there's something going on that you can't fix by yourself.

they either aren't covered by health insurance or only prescribe medication (which is fucking expensive though covered by health insurance, sense?)

the remote possibility of suicide attempts?

 

What the hell? You should visit a shrink, seriously.. there's something going on that you can't fix by yourself.

they either aren't covered by health insurance or only prescribe medication (which is fucking expensive though covered by health insurance, sense?)

 

Ask your parents for money, if it's needed. I'm sure they will care more about their son then about cash, hell, start saving up and sell some old stuff of yours. It's a matter of priorities; what is more important, gaming, or whatever you spend your cash on, or some good help? You need it, so you should have it.

Ask your parents for money, if it's needed. I'm sure they will care more about their son then about cash

mother doesn't have any money, father hasn't been contacted for 13 years.

 

hell, start saving up and sell some old stuff of yours.

got no 'old stuff'

 

It's a matter of priorities; what is more important, gaming, or whatever you spend your cash on

'having something to do during the day' is quite important, yes

 

or some good help? You need it, so you should have it.

I don't speak the language enough to be able to explain my issues anyway.

No chance of getting an animal ? a dog would give you something to do. (sounds perv, but whatever)

No chance of getting an animal ? a dog would give you something to do. (sounds perv, but whatever)

just wind up not walking it, as it's a small dog that only urinates/defecates in a pre-specified area that works fine

[...]to explain my issues anyway.

That anyway sounds like "Meh, that wont work, why should I try?"

 

Force yourself to go out walking. Just do it. Anything that keeps you for a few days away from the PC.

Force yourself to go out walking. Just do it. Anything that keeps you for a few days away from the PC.

and that comes back to my other point, there's no subconscious interest in that, and it's actually boring as fuck

Force yourself to go out walking. Just do it. Anything that keeps you for a few days away from the PC.

and that comes back to my other point, there's no subconscious interest in that, and it's actually boring as fuck

Well, then what it is your sunconscious interest?

 

Also, you dont neccessarily need that interest. What you need is distraction and relaxation.

I moved, no more exploration of that area. Not that I would have been able to, my endurance reduced to none since the first facility placement.

 

again no real alternatives exist except for sleep, and that ruins my stability even more.

Well if sleeping reduces stability you could do something like doing some sort of physical activity..go to a gym,learn to swim,Download a good movie/series and watch it...

 

Honestly (Since im a medical Student) Sleeping is required;if you are unable to get a good no. of hours your mental state will start changing,

Sleeping is required;if you are unable to get a good no. of hours your mental state will start changing,

problem is I sleep too much!

Sleeping is required;if you are unable to get a good no. of hours your mental state will start changing,

problem is I sleep too much!

Then try maintain 8 hours a day and use a alarm to wake you up of necessary,gradually intime your brain will get use to maintaining 8 hours; Also dont do stuff whoch tire you so much,if you do you will end up sleeping even more..

Then try maintain 8 hours a day and use a alarm to wake you up of necessary,gradually intime your brain will get use to maintaining 8 hours; Also dont do stuff whoch tire you so much,if you do you will end up sleeping even more..

do have nothing to do for most of the day, as for a majority of usual daytime irc/forums are inactive, and no other activities I have available interest me

Then try maintain 8 hours a day and use a alarm to wake you up of necessary,gradually intime your brain will get use to maintaining 8 hours; Also dont do stuff whoch tire you so much,if you do you will end up sleeping even more..

do have nothing to do for most of the day, as for a majority of usual daytime irc/forums are inactive, and no other activities I have available interest me

Impossible. Cant be that there is nothing else you can do...

Tried drawing, composing music or such?

Impossible. Cant be that there is nothing else you can do...

Tried drawing, composing music or such?

not creative at all sadly. also my mindset/development has been too fixated on coding that there isn't much else I can adjust myself to.